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Tuesday, 09 March 2010

  • I feel fat, tired and ugly

    The weather is so cold in France. Snow, frozen wind, and so is my skin... frozen. My nose is reddish, I caught a cold and feel so tired.

















    Today, I 'm wearing a big belt, like those in Japan's traditional outfit (Obi belt). It's pretty, but I wear it in a way of hidding my belly by compressing it under the fabric. I also have two big sweatshirt, a very long skirt... I can't be more hidden.


    I feel fat







    Feel like her.
    Look like her by the way...

    I feel as if I need to loose pounds and pounds. In fact, I'm not big. I'm not really fat at all. I'm around 17BMI, and I'm considered skinny. Well, I'm not.


    I'm so stupid, and the first thing I did while I went back home was to eat chocolate cereals. Without being hungry. And now ? I'm thinking of eating. Well, I'll not eat until diner. I have to work( in fact I'm woring in a primary school and have to work at home for my studies...). But I can't stay concentrated on my work. My head is too heavy and I'm so disgusted of being like this today.

    I feel stupid, I feel lazy, I feel bad.


Sunday, 07 March 2010

  • How to have a nice skin ?

    I have a fade complexion. Pale, as if I was sick. It's strange but I like it ! The problem is that I often get spots... red scars on a Snow White face, it's awful. I don't have so many, but it's annoying.

    Every morning, I use a flower lotion(without alcool), then I use a cream for sensitive skins. No foundation cream, just Kohl and blush sometimes.
    Every evening, I wash my face with a lotion or almond oil, and then with Alep soap. Then, I put on some cream because my skin is a bit dry.

    Once a week , I use scrumbs or "clarifying" face-packs (soft one with cereals or rasoul), and I use at least one moisturizing face-pack (home made with shea butter or oils and honey).

    Have you an idea of what I can change to elude spots or tiny red marks ?

Sunday, 21 February 2010

Tuesday, 16 February 2010

  • I shave a part of my head [pictures]

    Last friday, I decided to shave a part of my head  my nape. I told my boyfriend, and surprisingly, he told me that it would be so beautiful !

    So on monday...
    This :
     

    Became like that :                                                   Hair down :


    Back :


    Half of my friend and family think that it's awful, and the other half that it's pretty or not so bad.
    I personnaly love, my boyfriend too !


    Would you dare to do something like this one day?

Tuesday, 19 January 2010

  • "Silhouette"

    I like making photograph, and being on photograph. Well, a bit narcissic, but I like the way we can make yourself looking good with a nice light, a nice background... and it's an image that cans till forever.

    Now, I had an idea. I decided to have pictures of my "silhouette". So, My boyfriend made a shooting of myself and modified it to become this :

     


    Do you like this kind of pictures ?

    Some other (not of myself) to make you having an opinion.


Saturday, 16 January 2010

  • news from myself: Concert, health, weight

    Hello everybody !
    Long time without coming here. I strated a new life that I expected to be better. On a certain manner it's the case. But some problem occurs (not enough work so not enough money , and I'm very tired...).
    I'm so so tired now. I can't learn (my lessons), I can't make sport (because I faint when I try), I can't do anything;.. s I'm on internet, trying not to fall asleep, because I at my In law's and it's not fair to sleep when lunch time is comming.

    I have lost weight during Christmas, my BMI was around 15. I was good at the moment, a bit tired but ok (picture of me with a corset at the end of the article was tken at that moment). Now that I have regain this weight to reach my "normal" weight (that is to say medical too low but good for me), I'm... well, I can say that I'm sick. Crapy. I hope that will be better soon,. I try to sleep more, to eat a bit more too.

    SO. What's new that is better to tel you on lovelyish, except that I have a Zombi complexion?

    1.Hum... New hair color ! That is a good thing. I trying to make my hair lighter/redder, and love it. Fire like!


    2.Then, I have a picture with my second corset (from New Year's eve), so that you can see my work. I have sown this one during april/mai 2009. I made another in summer 2009, and maybe one more "lingerie" like soon. I love having a so tiny waist!


    3.And lastly, we go to see RAMMSTEIN in concert in december. We were in front of the scene, just in frint of Till (singer). I finally faint (around 40degrees on the room + people crashing together on the crowd of 12,000people !).


    So, There are some pictures of the Show !

    Till(singer) with his mechanic wings (that make fire effects)

     
    Till very close (I was just 2 or 3 meters from his feet, he is very very impressive! 1m93 for around 100kilos)


    Flake (clavier) on the boat, held by the public !


    Myself with my fan tshirt (well, i'm not ashamed to be fan of these guys)

    I think I would go here more often soon, when I'll have retire more. I hope that you're all ok !


Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • Currently
    Uprising
    By Muse
    see related

    Muse Concert : Marvellous

    It was on the 1st nivember 2009 : Muse Concert.
    We were -me and my boyfriend-just in front of the scene, near Matthew Bellamy (the singer). It was very very marvellous, good music, good atmosphere... I wasn't fan of this group (my boyfriend and his bestfriend are fan for years), but I can say now that I really am.



    And seeing Matthew Bellamy playing guitare just in front of me made me want to start learning how to play guitare (since I know how to sing already :p )!
    So, my boyfriend has a guitare, he knows how to play.. and two days ago I start. Revelation, I'm not so bad, and I already can play some simple song ("Au Claire de La lune" "Happy Birthday"..).I made some music (only theory) when I was a child, and have piano knowledge (basics ones). It helps a lot ! So, now that I know how to place my hands and make notes, I must try to add some technic. And find something to heal my fingers, because playing guitare is very painful (but only in the beginning said my boyfriend).

    Here is the guitare : a Silverstine fender (electric).

     I must made a picture of the guitare I use tomorrow or later ^^

    So, what's up ??


Friday, 30 October 2009

  • Halloween fail "funny" costums pic !

    I wasn't here for a while, because I had to move. I'm now living in another part of my country-France- and I'm happy.
    I continu to study, I have a little job (baby sitting à little Kosta, sweet 5 years old boy), I'm with my boyfriend and all my pets (two rats, a cat 3 aquariums).

    So,just a little entry to speak about it. Sunday (we are still friday, 30th october in France, it's 6AM), I go to a concert of MUSE !

    Here is a little song from their new Album :uprising

    And for those who like Twilight (not my case) they are on the Original Band.(Belong to me).

    And on Saturday ? Well, Halloween ! Some idea of costums (I will wear my corset and the skirt I sew personnaly, so nothing unusual for me !)


    Ken Costume


    Sailor Moon



    Kitty-Vador


    Enjoy !

Friday, 25 September 2009

  • QOTD :Include the mention "photoshopped" under pictures on magazines ?

    Do you think that it could be a good idea to mentionned under a picture if it is photoshoped or not ?


    It's an idea of a french politician (a woman). She proposed a law to impose this mention, in a way to preserve people from bad self estim concerning their physical appearance. I translate for you what she said :

    "These pictures coul make people believing in this almost always fake reality"." It's not correct to make us thinking that 20 years old people are prettier than 70 years old. I want to re-built the border between reality and virtuality."

    She didn't mention anorexia (she made the law to ban pro anorexia website a few years ago in France) or things like this, but just want to say that it's a general tendancy to show a fake reality.

    What's your opinion ?




Tuesday, 22 September 2009

  • My new bag

    My new bag is a strange one. It has an head, a queue, is fluffy. In fatc, it's a WWF bag !
     


    Ok, I'm 21 years old... but according to the size of suspenders, it's not made for small children (since I wear the bag with suspender almost at the smaller size...). Can be strange too concerning my style, but not so strange for people knowing me.


    But, no matter what others are thinking, I love my bag, and it's for a cause I support : protection of animals.

    Do you have something odd like my bag that you love ?

Monday, 21 September 2009

  • Snö bioflower : product crush !

    I just discover a so wonderful brand of cosmetic products : Snö Bioflower. It's a french brand,  with ecologic labels and a politic of envirronement protection. This brand was created by Raphaëlle Monod- Sjöström, a former Ski champion whose grand father was a botanists. She loves her moutains and, as a woman, love taking care of herself.

    Their engagement is to use as much as 95% to 100% of vegetal and organic component, to be cruelty free, to make products that are not too expensive (because organic products are often very expensive), and to avoid paraben, phenoxy and petrochimy.
    In fact, when you look to the composition of some of their products, you can seethat they are made of essential oils, plants extracts and stuff like that. Only.


    I tried (and still use) :
    *massage oil with millepertuis : it's an oil to relax muscle and feel better. It's really really my favorite products ! I love it, it gives me the impression that my stress fly away of me : I recommend it. (around 8 euros)

    *cream for hands : I use this cream more than 10 times a day (I have an OCD I think). It let my hands smooth, and the little perfum is soft, fresh. (around 6 euros)

    *face cream : soft, it makes the skin smooth, the complexion light, and it's really fair. (around 10euros)

    There are so many other products, like a roll-on for acne, shampoo, masks for face and body,  tonic lotion for the skin... It's not so expensive, and really interesting.


    Do you use* this brand ?

    (*thanks Mercredi)




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